I am Back

Sorry, everybody. We ended up extending our mini-vacation to yesterday. We came home about 1:00 then I worked at 4:30. I thought I would have time to write something at work, but we were swamped. School is out and everybody is starting 'Summer Reading' at the library. Whoo-wee. But, I saw the cutest kid yesterday! He came and stood at the Circ. desk where I work and he had on his little version of the Indiana Jones hat and he was checking out an Indiana Jones book. He was soooooooooo adorable!

We had a great couple of days away down in Southern Kentucky at the farm and at my parents house. We even brought the dogs and Grandma and Grandpa Simmons were so excited to see them and hang out with them. Grandma even bought them big pillows to sleep on. I will have to get a picture of that on here:)

I have not had time to read the next few chapters in Genesis so there will be nothing long on here today. But, I do what to share a quote I heard yesterday on an audiobook Michael and I are listening to by Rob Bell called 'Velvet Elvis'. I highly recommend this book. He is the pastor at Mars Hill Church and does the NOOMA videos. He was talking yesterday about how as an intern he had all these dreams about how church should be and then when he became a pastor all of that came true and he was running a 10,000 member church. Then one day, he figured out how overwhelmed he was trying to be 'Super Pastor' and he needed to decide what to do. He knew he was trying to be someone he wasn't created to be. In therapy, his counselor said this , 'Anything other than the pursuit of who God wants you to be is Sin.' He really liked this, because he realized he was pursuing more of what he wanted rather than just being who God wanted him to be. He wasn't detailed oriented, he is creative. Michael and I stopped the book there and just talked about what kind of Super People were we trying to be and was that our pursuit or God's?? We figured out a lot and where God wants us to be. WE love ministry. We love youth. And if it means being poor doing that, then so be it. Then we are in the active pursuit of who God wants us to be and that is what is most important.

I want my life remembered as a legacy of pursuing the life God wants me to lead everyday. To stop pursuing what I think needs to be done or who I need to be or what I need to be doing with my life. All that is done for people's favor, not God's. I want God's favor, His plan. I want it badly! I have been living in bondage to that super person instead of living in the freedom that God wants me living in everyday. So, today I start my pursuit. Where it takes me, I have no clue. I hope you all understand what I am saying and will ask yourselves 'Am I being the person God wants me to be or am I pursuing who I want to be?' 'Is there junk in your past that has formed who you are today that you are beginning to notice has led you to pursue who you should be rather than getting healing from God or counselors so that you can actively pursue who God wants you to be?' See I have some major healing to go through with my past. Stuff, that only God can heal that I have not given Him fully. Stuff that keeps me from pursuing who He wants me to be.

Love to you all,

Susan